January 4, 2009
Financial troubles and relationships
Robert lost his job November 26th, 2008. It’s now January 4th, 2009.
How have we been doing since he’s been out of work?? Not great.
Apparently not having money to pay the bills makes him mad at ME. It seems that way sometimes anyway.
It’s not like I’m not stressing over bills too. I’m in the same boat as he is.
I know as well as he does that we don’t have $403 to pay the light bill. This bugs me too. I will be without electricity just like him if it doesn’t get paid. So will our three kids.
With him not working, he nit picks at me about everything. I feel like I’m not doing ANYTHING right, but EVERYTHING wrong!
So when I’m grilling a sandwich and he made a comment about it not cooking… I kind of went off. I’m tired of feeling like I’m worthless and not doing anything right.
Earlier when I was folding laundry, he was at my desk looking for the light bill that we can’t afford. He was griping about the old bills from October being on my desk.
Mind you, had I been at my desk, he would have been complaining about the laundry piling up.
I feel like I can’t win for losing.
I plan on going to try to get assistance for the light bill tomorrow, by the way. So maybe that will release some of his… ‘whatever the problem is that makes him nit pick at me and blow up when I finally crack and say something’… built up anger.
December 14, 2008
I can’t wait…
…to see my kids faces on Christmas day when they open their gifts.
Santa told me what he’s getting them *wink*
Santa got the boys both a Leapster hand held video game system with one game each. Leapster teaches kids spelling, math, reading, etc. So I hope they will have fun and learn some cool things at the same time.
I bought them an old school Nintendo 64 off of Ebay! They scratch up cd’s, computer games & dvd’s so badly that I decided old school cartridge games would be safer with them.
The system I got has 18 games with it, plus I bought another game they will love at the flea market and a couple more off Ebay. They will be all set to play their hearts out!
I think they will LOVE the video game systems…. even though the N64 is a tad outdated… it will be new to them and they’ll have a blast!
We got Dakota this awesome graphics thing for the computer. You hook it up to the pc and there’s a thing he can draw on that puts his art into the screen for him to see. We also got a printer to go along so he can print what he wants to. (He’s our little artist!!)
Billy asked for this art thing… not even sure what it is, but we got it for him.
I think they’ll be happy… although Santa nor mommy & daddy got what they REALLY wanted. (Billy wanted the Night Vision Goggles $60, and they BOTH wanted a D-Rex for $150… OMG!) Santa nor mommy & daddy could afford all that. I hope they’re not too disappointed!
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